Journaling
"Do you journal?"
"I blog."
"I suppose that's journaling of some sort."
Journaling is supposed to be therapeutic so I thought I'd give it kind of a try. Most of what I write is fiction or fictionalized reality, I thought I'd try something closer to the truth for a while.
I feel like crap today, mostly because the thorazine keeps me doped up but I'm also starting to get depressed. I'll be 51 tomorrow, the past decade has been the worst, I'm almost afraid to hope for a good year, much less decade. I'll get over it, tomorrow will pass and then it'll be the same old struggles again.
~ Later
$100 came in mail from ex for my birthday... I cried. I've fucked up everything in my life, I can deal with failure but not the pain I've caused and somehow still cause.
"I blog."
"I suppose that's journaling of some sort."
Journaling is supposed to be therapeutic so I thought I'd give it kind of a try. Most of what I write is fiction or fictionalized reality, I thought I'd try something closer to the truth for a while.
I feel like crap today, mostly because the thorazine keeps me doped up but I'm also starting to get depressed. I'll be 51 tomorrow, the past decade has been the worst, I'm almost afraid to hope for a good year, much less decade. I'll get over it, tomorrow will pass and then it'll be the same old struggles again.
~ Later
$100 came in mail from ex for my birthday... I cried. I've fucked up everything in my life, I can deal with failure but not the pain I've caused and somehow still cause.
Posted by RevrendZ - 3/01/2006 07:42:00 AM
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1 Comments:
I hear ya on the feeling like you've fucked up everything and everyone around you; it's part of the BP burden.
Hang in there, and use that cash to get a nice sweater!
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