Getting There

Driving is hell, I only do it when I have to. For over ten years now I've had nightmares of being in car wrecks, in the worst of them I live. If I do more than 20-30 mph I feel like I'm driving on a sheet of ice and about to lose control. Sometimes I get lost, even going to familiar places. It's a 30 minute drive to my clinic. I'm terrified when I get there and, as usual, I have to wait. I feel like the others in the room are watching and judging me, their loud talk rings in my head. I walk through a maze to get to the office, by the time I'm there everything has driven the words I rehearsed for two days from my head. I leave discouraged that very little was accomplished and I face another long scary drive.