Rolling Writer

When I turned forty, burnt out on programming, half out of my mind, I turned to creative writing. I had always been writing, a different language, a different mindset, a different type of creativity, but it wasn't the writing I wanted to do, I wanted to write a book. For a time I tried to do both but it was too much for my bipolar mind to handle, I had to choose one, I chose my book. Recently I returned to programming as I got interested in writing a game and I've discovered a pattern that allows me to do both. When I'm depressed I work on my book, when I'm hypomanic, on the up side, I work on the game. When I'm feeling normal, a rarity, it's a toss-up. When I'm bored or listless I'm usually in the beginning stages of a new phase and when I get manic it all spins out of control. "A double minded man is unstable in all his ways", when your life is built on instability balance has to be found wherever you can, whenever you can, or it all falls apart. I found my balance in writing and knowing what to write when.