the Monkey is On . . .

the Monkey is On . . .
Originally uploaded by bebalance.

I can't seem to find the meds that will help me maintain some kind of balance. I'm so doped up these days I feel like I'm drunk all the time. I stagger around bumping into things, sometimes I sit around like a drooling idiot. The problem is, I can't get stabilized, as doped up as I am if I'm even an hour late on my meds I start getting manic. I've pretty much given up on trying to work, I have to be dosed in the afternoon and soon after I start making mistakes. The last time I worked I gave a lady change for a 5 when she gave me 20. She seemed pretty cool about but a little later she waved manager over to her table and they talked awhile. When my drawer was counted I was 6 bucks short, usually I was never more than a few cents off. The worst part is my speech starts slurring and I have trouble understanding what people say. I need the money but, even though I could get unemployment, I hate the thought of being fired, That rarely happens at Fast-n-Eat, unless there's theft involved they just leave people off the schedule until they get fed up and quit..